I am feeling under the weather recently. It may have somehing to do with my persistent cough that is making my throat sore. Or it could be that the whole family was sick for a week since our Hk trip and the kids are still coughing badly, sleeping a lot and eating very little; especially Landon.
All the above plus Landon is starting his formal education in a mainstream school in two days’ time and I am nervous. I am worried. I am anxious. I am hopeful. I am scared. He is a slow learner and likes to disturb others... so I am worried.
It was in HK that I started ti feel depressed. I felt that I have lost my sense of identity. I am a mother. But who am I. Take my kods away, and what is left of me? The constant 24/7 of being with them stressed me out. I need space. Maybe I just need Landon to behave.
He can read a little now but his pace of learning is atill not comparae to normal kids his age. I am at times lost. What else can I do.
Other than Landon, I have Ashlyn to worry about too. Her attitude towards me. Her laziness. Her dirtiness. It is sad.
